things have been going lately--i feel this strange pulling though as if I might be going further down--two days ago I felt really--well safe, okay--but now i feel very weary and sad like I know no one and nothing like I just can't get it I want to run so far. i wish i hope he'd run with me. I really do--i just don't want to know anything know anyone not even what color is anymore--if you don't have a name for it it's yours isn't it.